The Cure "There Is No If"

"No you don't"

"Yes," You counter immediately, hand cupping my chin to force eye contact. "I do." Then you snag my wrist and drag my hand to your crotch, pressing my fingers to your hardness. I fight to contain a whimper, not succeeding. My breathing is harsh, the sheer sensation of my hand on you leaves me teetering on the brink of orgasm. "You see?" Your tone is almost casual, but your voice is breathy and harsh with effort. "I'm ready."

Your words hit me like a freight train. We really could do this. Right now. I feel lightheaded.

Your lips cover mine and I melt into you. We tangle and touch for an endless moment, and I'm not ready for you to draw back from me, speaking softly.

"I'm ready this time." You stress each word singularly. I want so badly to believe you at this moment.

"But Dan-" I try to speak, but you silence me with your lips, forcing your tongue into my mouth, and almost instantly I can't even remember my hastily composed sentence. In fact, any further thoughts I have are history as you proceed to drive me out of my head with your mouth and hands. I savour every moment.

//We shouldn't do this. You're not ready.//

You're tugging my jeans open, breath hot on my stomach. My cock is tingling as you release it from my briefs. //Oh god, Dan I want you so much right now.//

"I want you too..." Your whisper feathers over my stomach, and it strikes me that I've been speaking aloud.

I feel your breath hot at the base of my cock and it's so good it's almost pain. I'm fighting hard not to come. Somewhere in my desire drenched mind as small voice is screaming //We can't do this. It's too soon. It'll fuck up everything.//

"No it wont." Your voice pierces my lust-haze. I must still be thinking aloud. "I'm ready for this." You punctuate your statement with a slow lick to my cock, the tip of your tongue tracing a vein. Seeing you like this, your mouth worshipping me, your eyes glowing up at me, I want you more than air.

I'm seduced. There's no going back now.

A startled noise that I realise is coming from my own mouth pierces the room and you've swallowed my cock. It's heaven. Your lips are hot and slick around me, laving my flesh. Your hands slowly roving my chest and arse. I am overwhelmed by sensation. You. Here. Making love to me. It's too much.

"Dan... I'm gonna..." You draw back and I'm torn between relief and loss. My cock is on fire, on the brink of explosion, and you're looking up at me with lips shiny with moisture.

"Not yet." You say, crawling up my body to lay atop me. "We're going to do this right."

"Dan - are you sure-"

"Shhhhhh..." You silence my question with a light kiss. "I want this." You say the words slowly, almost as if you're trying to convince yourself. "I want you."

Those words. I never thought I'd hear those words from you - ever. At least, never like this. Not as part of a song, as a light joke, or a passing comment. You want me. Daniel Jones wants me. Truly and completely. There's only one thing for me to say.

"Let's go to bed."

I want to make it good for you. So good you'll never doubt it, never question it. I want to make you moan, scream, come. I will be your first. First and only.

In the bedroom you become shyer. You know you don't have to prove it to me anymore. I believe you. I believe you want this. Now you're letting me take the lead - your inexperience showing.

"I'm going to make this so good for you baby." I whisper, leading you toward my oversize bed.

"I know." Your voice barely registers. Are you nervous? You seem to be. I start to worry, but your hands are tugging at my jeans and I'm starting to struggle with thought.

I take the lead and strip you of clothes. I go slowly, savouring each piece of your body as I uncover it. Lean chest. I've seen that before, in dressing rooms and even some rehearsals. But I've never been able to just lean down and caress it with my tongue before, as I'm doing now. Your skin is salty and smooth. You let out a small breath. I smile against your skin.

I struggle with your shoes and then your belt. Then its long lean legs being exposed to my roving eye. And a sharply tented pair of boxers. I can't help leaning in to nuzzle you through the soft fabric, breathing in your heady scent. Your hand catches in my hair and I look up to see desire hazed eyes. I want to keep going slowly, savouring every moment of this, but the moment your boxers are down to your thighs I am gripped by arousal too intense to fight. Your cock is in my mouth before I can even think.

It's heaven. My fingers tangled in your underwear, your hands gently gripping my head, your hard flesh sliding in and out of my lips. I nuzzle and suck, loving the taste of you, feeling your response throbbing through your shaft, enjoying it, wanting more, wanting to feel you explode in my mouth. Just when I think I might feel it - taste it - you draw back, panting.

"Not yet... not yet Daze, please..." I can barely think I'm so hot. You drag me up to my feet, breathing heavily and dropping light kisses over my face. "I want you inside me, Daze"
I have to grasp hold of you to stay upright. "I want to feel you... inside me... when I come. Please."

I can't speak. I am absolutely struck by your words, so hot, so fucking turned on I can barely take a breath. The way you say it, the way you insist that we do it this way... it's like your acting out a cherished fantasy, and you want to get it just right. The thought makes me melt.

Wordlessly I strip off what remains of my own clothing and we fall onto the bed. Some frantic scrabbling in drawers later and I've produced condoms and lube. I unwrap a condom and start to put it on when a thought grabs me. This is your first time. You really should top me first, it will be closer to what you're used to. As much as the thought of burying myself inside you makes me burn, I want this to be good for you. The best. Without pain. I'll have plenty of time to teach you the rest later...

I look up from the condom at you and try to speak-

"Dan, I really think you should-"

"Shhhh." You hush me again, and seal my lips with a kiss. "I want it *this* way." You reitorate, taking the condom from my fingers and putting it on me *yourself*. The feel of your hands on me sends another surge of electric heat through my body, and at this moment I will do anything you say. You can have whatever you want.

"Ok." I whisper, my voice hardly working now. "Lie down on your stomach, it's the best way for your first time." Your expression twinges when I say that, almost like you could cry, and I feel the same. I feel so honored that you will let me do this. That you *want* me to do this.

You settle on the bed and I position your legs so that your delectable arse is pointing up at me. I kiss and stroke down your back till I reach the crease between your buttocks, sliding a lubed finger inside. You start a little as I prepare you, first one finger then two, with me leaning over your body, gently kissing your neck.

"We can stop whenever you like." I whisper gently, feeling you clench around my fingers, slowly getting used to me.

"Keep going." You grunt out, voice gravelly with arousal. I push inside a little further and find what I'm looking for. Your body leaps upward as I stroke over the spot. "Oh god, Darren!" You whimper, your voice alone making my cock want to explode.

"What is it baby?" My voice is strained with the effort of holding back.

"Now Darren, do it now!" You order, panting out between harsh breaths.

My heart flips when I hear that. I have to grip the base of my cock to keep from coming as I lube up. You're looking over your shoulder at me, fighting for control, pushing your arse back toward my cock. You look so fucking hot like this.

Finally the tip of my cock is at your opening. I fight for restraint, reminding myself how much *my* first time hurt, trying to go slow.

"Let me know if I'm hurting you." I murmur, reaching around your body to find your cock, smoothing my fingers over it as I push inside you. I feel you tense up and know I'm hurting you. I stay as still as I can to let you get used to it. You are so hot, so *tight*, it's heaven and it's killing me not to move, to pound into you like I want to.

"Darren..." Your voice is soft, almost lost between breaths.

"Yes?" I strain out, slowly stroking your cock, "You ok?"

You turn your head to the side so you can look at me, your eyes are glazed with need.

"Fuck me. Please fuck me, Darren." Your words sent a jolt straight to my cock, and without even thinking about it, I start to move. Oh fuck yes, it feels *so* good. You're moaning with pleasure and I know you're loving it. My hand is working your cock in rhythm to our hips moving. I can feel my orgasm coming already.

"I'm not gonna last long." I moan into your shoulder, my cock already starting to spasm as I ride you, faster and faster, spurred on by your bucking hips and ever-loudening groans.

I don't last long, you feel too good. Orgasm rips through me like an earthquake and I cry your name as I release inside you. You're not long behind, squeezing my cock with your body as I squeeze yours with my fingers. I watch you closely as orgasm takes you. Eyes pinched shut, face contorted, so fucking beautiful. Aftershocks rock through us and we stay glued together, savouring the last of it.

I can't believe this really happened.

Absently, I roll us onto our sides, and you moan slightly as I withdraw. I get rid of the condom and curl my body around you. You're lying prone, your eyes dreamy. Milky spatters are across your chest. I slide a finger through them, drawing it to my mouth and licking it clean. Tasting you, so bittersweet.

We lie like this, the room silent but for our panting breaths.

"Are you ok? Does it hurt?" My voice sounds so young.

I can feel you starting to drift off already.

"Na-uh." You mutter, voice rough as gravel.

I'm starting to follow you into dreamland when your voice breaks the silence again.

"What does this make us?" You sound genuinely perplexed.

"Whatever you want, babe." I drop a kiss on your shoulder. "Whatever you want."

Sleep claims me soon after. I sleep well, heavily and dreamlessly, with you in my arms.

Yes, there IS more...

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