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Truth In A Broken Mirror
by Tabitha
Author's Note:I dont know SG , I simply like them . I am sorry if you dont like my story
but thats life . feedback is welcome but not demanded (like that would
change anything !) This story was writen in an hour and has absolutly no
truth in it ! its all a lie !!!!!
*Note: Thanx Ashley and Kerah who inspired my wonderful story ! I hope you
guys learn to dance soon or I wont go out in public with you ! lol
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Emily walked farther out onto the balcony that over looked her back yard .
she left the door leading from the outside into her bedroom open . the harsh
rain left soft tracks down her delicate face and provided a disguise for the
marks of her tears . Everything was as it always had been , her parents were
off on another gambling trip to Vegas , her brother Eric was off to boot
camp and she was left to fend for herself in the large and lonely house .
Everything around her was surprisingly quiet for the time of year , all she
could hear was the soft 'pitter-patter' of the rain hitting the surface of
the large pond in the yard . She thought about her life and what it could
never be . In the beginning she had been thrilled at the thought of working
with the band "SavageGarden .She was a little surprised at how the whole
thing had come to pass. She had been chatting on-line when a man sent her a
private message and asked for her advice , she had agreed to try and help
out of goodness and partially because she was nosey and wanted
To know everything . The man whose screen name was "average Joe" described
his dilemma and she offered her say as to what he should do . It just so
happened that It was Daniel Jones . He asked
Her if she would be interested in a job as a councilor to the band
And she graciously accepted . the years had gone by so fast , she
Had gone on tour with them , she traveled with them , she even partied with
them , and all she had to do was listen to what was stressing them out and
offer the best advice she could . She loved her job , and who wouldn't' it
was a great job ! But then the greatness wore off . It all started when
Darren walked into her room without knocking and sat down on her bed . She
could see and hear him even now as she transported back in time with her
memories .
"I don't know what to do , I want to crawl into a whole and never be found !
I can't go on feeling like this but I can't kill myself !
Nothing will ever be the same , I wish we could go back to the way things
were but there is no way we ever could ! It's over ! It's all over ! Dreams
gone in a flash and life thrown into the wind" He wiped the tears from his
face but they kept coming.
"Darren ?" Emily asked groggy . she had been sleeping .
"Please don't send me away !" he pleaded with her , "I really
need to talk ! I can't sleep !"
"whats going on ? why are you crying ?" Emily knew she sounded
confused but with sleep leaving her at the slow pace of a turtle going
uphill she was disoriented and dazed .
"Its Daniel …." He paused and let out a sob "He hates me !"
Emily knew there was no chance of her getting back to sleep .
Darren had come to her months before expressing the hidden desires he had
for Daniel , Emily was not shocked …how could she have been ? she knew they
were close and she spent enough time with Darren (seeing as how he is the
over-emotional needy one!) to know he wasn't completely straight .
"I'm sure he doesn't hate you Darren ," she said , sounding as if she was
soothing a tormented child instead of a grown man . In a way she was love
can leave you feeling young, and venerable .
"he does , He does ! He said it himself ! He said that I was a queer
and that I need to be beaten and locked away ! I saw the disgust in
his eyes , He'll never talk to me again !" Darren's voice was at a stage
that Emily had never heard before , almost as if it were not even him .
"Darren , tell me what happened . Did you tell Daniel how you felt?"
"No" He swallowed hard "He kissed me"
"He kissed you …. And then he called you a queer ???"
"Ughhh.." He leaned back on the bed "I know its weird but you have to
understand , He didn't mean anything and I took it to far ..and now hes gone
forever !"
The swooping sound of a birds wings brought her back to reality and the
harsh truth it brings . she wrapped her arms around herself
And walked back inside . that night she had given the worst advice ever and
nothing could be done now to repair the damage . She
Had told Darren to go to Daniel and tell him everything , Insisting
That if Daniel had started the kiss he must have felt something .
Darren had taken her advice but the result was not what they had planed .
Darren had walked into Daniel's room only to find Daniel's limp , and
lifeless body on the bathroom floor .
The mirror had been shattered into pieces on the tiles and Darren could see
his reflection in the tiny fragments , well the ones that weren't covered
with blood anyway . Darren had been a mess and
Had come running Back to Emily's room with the note Daniel had left in his
hand . Over the next couple of days she helped him deal as best she could .
She over heard him talking to an empty room once saying "I'm coming" but he
had not looked dangerous so she
Never brought it up . Mistake # 2 .
Only three days after his ramblings at
the empty room police found Darren's car in the ocean . Emily knew it had
been a suicide but was reluctant to tell anyone , she wanted the boys to be
remembered fondly as she was sure they would have wanted it . They were
surly happy together wherever they were . she walked over to her bed and
withdrew the box that held the note she had saved from the past month .
Darren ,
I'm sorry ! I never ment to hurt you . I know you are not
gay but I am . I love you … I guess I always have
and always will . I realize now how selfish I am being to expect you to
forgive me for this secret I have kept .
don't think this is your fault …. It was me , I couldn't live with myself ,
with how I've Tainted our honest friendship
with this lie . Death was the only distance that could hold me from
destroying you , I had to do it don't you see !
I'm the one who was wrong , wrong to love you , wrong to kiss you , wrong to
call you those hateful words that I ment for myself . I will miss you always
!! but I do have to leave , I cant live with the pain of wanting the one
thing I haven't got .
Love you always !
DANIEL J .
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